Love: Past, Present & Future

This is a final part of first love gone wrong. After months into that break-up, he still came back to haunt me while I was trying to move on and letting go of the pains. I couldn't even explain why I still had a small hope that we could get back together. The day I saw his email in my mailbox, my heart skipped a beat. Darn it, all he did was sending an updates about his girlfriend's pregnancy.

Give me a break. I ain't your best friend...I ain't an angel...I was not going to forgive...I was not going to forget. What you did to me was not something I could ever forgive. There was no need for me to listen to those craps. All I knew was that it was time for me to move on for a better life, and matured from this puppy crappy love. Surprisingly, I realized it was not a real love since we were too young, I almost made the biggrst mistake by marrying someone I didn't truly love. It was all about physical attraction and good looking that led me to think I loved him enough to marry him. The biggest part that helped me go through that time was my parents and my BFF. I soon realized no one would be there for you but your family and a true friend who endured listening to your same old shits over and over.


I am not a Christian (I am a Buddhist by birth and by soul) but this beautiful quote struck me just every time and it couldn’t be any more true.



“When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better”


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….Something better…..Oh....MUCH better



After three on and off miserable years, another man came along. This time around I could not feel any more confident despite the fact that we lived on different continents. Once again, it was a long distance relationship….very long…much longer than Thailand and Korea in distance. This time around, it was real and mature (at least he was as far as age wise). I was 22 and he was 28 when we first met.

After two years of enduring a long distance relationship, some financial damages from several plane tickets plus some outstanding balance in his American Express credit card, I met the man who later became my one and only husband.



….Nine years and counting since that day we met…



….Two weddings with the same man (thank god!! One in Thailand and one in the US)....



….Two wedding anniversaries per year that we NEVER remember…NEVER celebrate….



….Hardships we went through together….


.....All the craps I put him through.....


.....All the craps he puts me through.....



….Seeing each other’s true colors…...



….Many heated discussions and some stupid arguments….



….Being on the edge in our marriage….


….Two hairy cats….


….One little girl we love dearly….


….Here we are today…


{Do you know that a bear and a chicken can make one adorable kitten????}

This must be one of the most personal stories I have ever shared to the world. At the end I hope my message gets crossed that there is "a better day" for everyone. It is just the matter of time. Some people may take a longer and more painful path than another to find what they are looking for.

There is someone out there for everyone. It may take months, years or even a lifetime to find him/her. They may not meant to be with you for life but only a short period of time together may be worthwhile. There are different kinds of love. Father’s love, mother’s love, pet’s love. Any kind of love is precious.