Love Diary: Love at First Sight~* & Feedback, please

Per the sources I read, it suggested to use pregnancy test in the morning for the most accurate result (first morning urine). Believe it or not? I couldn't fall asleep that night. The time finally had come....right at 6 a.m. on Friday June 6, 2008.....my life changed forever. I was all excited...I was about to find out.

In a bathroom, my hand was shaking...two little red lines started appearing in no time. "Oh my goooooddddd I am pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I yelled repeatly like a maniac. I walked in circle in the bathroom..couldn't decide whether I should be happy or what...it was more like "could this be real?".."was it that easy to get pregnant??" I thought it was only in some drama series. On another thought, I was so relieved that I didnt' have a tumor growing inside.

As soon as I got over my panic mode, I couldn't dial the phone fast enough. My husband needed to know ASAP. At that time, it was a little after 6 a.m.. My poor husband just finished his night shift and got ready to come home. Just imagine someone who was all groggy and tired after a long night at work. I delivered the news in a simple and straight way..he was speechless for a few seconds and wide awake all the way home for some reason ;)

I also left him an evidence of a pregnancy test stick before I left to work so he could see with his very own eyes that it was for real, I didn't draw an additional line lol. Next I called my patents who lived in Thailand, I told my dad that he and mom would have to get a visa to come visit me in the US next year, he had no clue what the heck I was talking about so I said "I am preggo!!!!" He also was speechless for literally 20 seconds lol. Boy...what's wrong with these men?!?! Strange enough he was joking with my mom a few weeks ago that I might be pregnant when I told him about my duck noodles soup craving.

To be honest, it felt SOOOO strange knowing that I had "another life" inside my body. I didn't feel or have that connection with her right away but deep down in side I did care so much about her without realizing it.

My life and my husband's literally changed since the moment that second red line appeared. I called my OB Gyn to schedule an appointment and just to made sure it was not a fault result (even though I was one million percent positive). Since it was already Friday, I couldn't get any appointment so the waiting game began. I had to wait until Tuesday on the following week but that was okay.

Tuesday finally arrived, I told my husband to meet me at work in the morning so we could go together because my doctor's office was not far from my work. My poor husband arrived late so I missed my appointment by 10 minutes and they couldn't wait!!!!!!! I was FURIOUS at my husband more than normal due to my pregnancy hormones flying off. I thought I could kill him. It was clost to lunch time and I had NO appetite because I was so mad so my husband left to go home before he got killed. I decided to call my doctor's office back begging to see her...I must see her this afternoon. Period!!!!!!!!!!!! The nurse finally gave in and told me to come in at 2pm. I called my husband and made sure he made it on time or else!!

Right at 2PM, we were there on time and got an official word that "we are pregnant!!!" I was 9 weeks pregnant. It was the beginning of frustration, joy, tears, laughters, stress, depression and everything in between.

My healthier and more protien diet began that very weekend. I bought most things organic and sought out the most nutrient food I could afford like organic milk and wild caught Sockeyes Salmon and etc. I forced myself to eat more meat which I had a hard time swallowing but I did it for that baby in my belly. I spent everyday looking up http://www.babycenter.com/ to see her growth and progress inside my womb. I didn't realize how much I cared about her at that time but everything I did in my everyday life showed through.

One of the biggest moments in my life arrived when my husband and I went for my first ultrasound on July 10, 2008. We were excited but didn't know what to expect.

The moment a technician put an equipment on my belly...I started seeing a shadow appearing on the screen. I felt like the world around me had stopped spinning. An image of that little body simply took my breath away, I couldn’t take my eyes off the screen. My eyes were wide opened. There was really a “life” inside of me and it was a life that I created.

Tears were running down my face as I saw that little head, those little arms..hands clenching in a shape of two little fists…those little legs. I simply could NOT believe I way I felt and how I reacted to that image. It was a very powerful feeling which I had never experienced in my entire life. What could this be? The image became so blurry as tears continued to run down my face, I just couldn’t stop crying. It must be this "joy and love" from the deepest part of my heart.....a feeling I didn't realize I had had. All of sudden, I knew my life would only get sweeter and be more meaningful.

In that dark room, no one saw my tears of joy…it was a well kept secret..only between me and that little life inside me. That moment…I knew for sure…it was…”love at first sight”

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Photobucket...screw me BIG time!!!! All of my images are still disappearing (grrrrrrrrrrrrr!) Please excuse my missing photos as you browsed through my older posts, per Photobucket, they should come back soon (maybe). Yet that gave me another excuse to revamp my blog..once again lol

As contradicting as it is, I actually found comfort in writing about motherhood and my daughter. Some of my regular readers know that I use this blog as to de-stress from motherhood. My primary reason to blog is to have my alone time and talk about other things/passions. However, this is who I am. . . I am a mom and I guess I secretly enjoy it more than I realize :)

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